That's it!

Okay, well, seeing as I have about one day left at home.. I might as well blog about my last day at school and.. my last day at home and what I've been doing.

So.. let's start with Friday, shall we? Oh my gosh, the Calculus final.. although it wasn't as bad as I though it would be.. it was still pretty hard! I'm scared that I'm not going to pass that class.. ugh.. God, I really need to step it up next year... Anyways, History final went by pretty well, we performed good, but dang, Economic Trends group did really good, with only three people. Props to them! We got like an 88% on our presentation, and then like, when he graded out portfolio, my grade actually went up a bit, so I'm pretty confident I have an A in History.. I'm not so sure about my other classes though.. Hmm.. Yeah, anyways, I hope that I have good grades in Chem.. I'm so freaking borderline in that class it's scary..

Er yeah. So, my last day at school went by pretty good. Really fast, if I must say so myself. Saturday, I woke up and.. SAT Subject test time... Hurrah. Not really. I woke up really early because, apparently, I had to drive down to James Logan High School because I signed up late for the subject tests, and that was the only test center they had left.. Well, i got there super early, and waited about an hour to get into my test room. I took the Math 2 and the Chem subject tests.. which I think I totally bombed by the way..

After the tests, I went home, ate pho with my parents and then headed to the Great Mall with my mom to buy my host brother something. After that, I came home, and now, here I am, typing up this blog. I just finished pack a while ago, but I have a feeling I'm going to forget something.. I really hope I don't.. I don't think I can just go home to grab something, even though I'll be in San Jose until Tuesday.. Urgh.. well, this is going to be my last post for the summer, for real this time, so hop on over to my home-stay blog! [Link]

And like this..

...one thing ends, and another begins.

As I've said before, it's kind of hard to wrap my head around the idea that I'll be leaving the country in about five days.. Well.. it's extremely hard. There's no kind of transition for me.. I mean, today will be my last day of school, and then after that, I'll have my SAT IIs tomorrow. I shouldn't even be awake right now.. I should be getting plenty of sleep for my finals, but I guess I just like to screw myself over or something.. Yesterday, I gave my English final speech. It was really great, but I felt like my message didn't really help anybody.. I hope that someone learned something and that my speech got a good score.. Oh yes, well, the only reason I got up to give my speech was because Julie went and gave her speech. It was really inspiring and motivating for me to give my speech after. Ah, I just heart Julie. :3 Her speech gave me the courage to go up to the podium and present.

Well, today is my Calculus final, French final, and History final. Omg, so many big class finals today. I'm freaking out as is because.. yeah.. omg this is going to be so insane. I'm scared that I might not get a good grade on this, etc. etc. Yeah. Gawd. I'm going crazy. I'm worrying so much, but I guess after approximately.. thirteen or fourteen hours, I won't have to worry about a thing.. maybe I should drink some monster or something at school tomorrow.. god.

I still haven't gotten information on my host family, but I'm hoping it will come in soon, I really want to buy gifts for them before I leave, so that I can have something to give them to show them how much I appreciate them for letting me have this wonderful experience. Ugh.. Well, Saturday is SAT IIs and then Sunday is the day I leave to go to SJSU with all the other winners of the Okinawa Peace Prize Scholarship. Monday, we hang at the SJSU campus learning etiquette and stuff.. I think.. and then I wake up early Tuesday morning to head down to San Fransico to catch my flight to Tokyo. As for the rest of my summer, I have no idea. I still haven't gotten packed yet! Ugh, I just know I'm going to forget something..

Anyways, this may or may not be my last blog on here until the end of summer, so just in case, I hope everyone has a wonderful summer, and if you want, you can check out my homestay blog. [Link]

Tick Tock, Tick Tock

Lately, life's just not been too great.

Finals. It's really killing me how a few letters on a piece of paper can determine my whole future and career. Ugh. Honestly, I'm just trying to get through this week as fast as I can, but then I realize, I'd also want to stretch this week because I don't have enough time to finish everything. It's such a pain in the butt that all my classes are so weighty and that I'm borderline in a lot of my classes. Augh. So.. lets see, tomorrow, I have a final in my Calculus AB class and.. well, nothing much is happening tomorrow.. Thursday, I have Periods 1,2,3,4..? Is that correct? Which means a final in English and Chemistry. English is a speech, that I still need to organize.. I mean, I have my idea, but I need to organize it.. it's so scattered.. Chemistry, I'm screwed. I have a B+ in that class because I slack off on my homework.. kill me now. I don't think that final would change my grades that much. Eff. Music and Pyschology I'm not really doing anything much, just chilling, watching presentations.. Fridays, Periods 1,5,6,7. Calculus AB final part two, which is the mulitple choice section of the final. French 2.. final on Unit 6. I fail at l'imperatif. I'm doomed. Eff, I hope Biaye doesn't base my grade off one test.. And finally, U.S. History.. Presentation worth 2,000 points in that class. I'm so doomed. One of our group members decided to drop out.. Which means.. our group is basically screwed.

Anyways, after that, I have to study for the SAT IIs. I'm taking Math 2 and Chemistry, and I'm going to be taking it at Logan High School. Wtf. Where the heck is Logan High School? Apparently, it's an hour's drive away, which means I'm going to have to wake up earlier than I would usually have to to get down to Logan to find the testing center, etc. God, I hate when this happens.. I just hope that it'll be worth taking it and that I won't have to take my SAT IIs over again.. After that.. Well. I'd basically be done for the school year. After coming home from SAT IIs, I'd probably take a nap. Then, start the tedious process of packing, and buying souvenirs for my host family, which by the way, I haven't gotten information on yet. I'm still wondering when YFU will send that info home..

Ugh. I'm so dead, I'm so dead, I'm so dead, I'm so dead. I'm just thinking about all the work that needs to be done before I leave.. I only have three school days left, and then I'm done.. I can hardly believe I have three days left.. CAN YOU BELIEVE I HAVE THREE DAYS LEFT? O_O This school year has gone by so fast.. practically flew by these last few days, but at the same time, it's stretching on for eternity. Or maybe just the fact that three is such a small number.. but then again.. that's approximately 72 hours.. 4920 minutes.. if I did my math correctly, 295200 seconds? Lawl the mental math-ness of it all is hurting my brains. Anyways, three days.. three school days.. finals, too much to do, too little time.. And the clock keeps ticking while I waste my time blogging..

Argh anyways, I haven't been feeling too well for the past week, period. Just harboring all these hurt/frustrated/irritated feelings towards more than one person. It's draining quite a lot of energy from me these days, and it doesn't help the fact that I'm only getting an average of three hours of sleep per day.. I feel like my facade is slipping, slowly, slowly, slipping down, and I'll be exposed, vulnerable.